To Rise, To Fall.
To Hurt, To Hate.
To Want, To Wait.
To Heal, To Save.

Can’t hear it
we fear it
awareness won’t come near it

Distractive
Reactive
Disguised in spite of time

I never bared my emotion
My passion always strong
I never lost my devotion
but somewhere fate went wrong

Can’t let them rape me again
Your venom’s not family here
won’t let them fill me with
fatalistic remedies

What if the rest of the world
was hopelessly blinded by fear?
Where would my sanctity live?
Suddenly nobody cares.

It’s never enough
You’re wasting your time
Isn’t there something I could say?
You don’t understand
You’re closing me out
How can we live our lives this way?

You tell me I’m wrong
I’m risking my life
Still, I have nothing in return
I show you my hands
You don’t see the scars
Maybe you’ll leave me here to burn.

What if the rest of the world
was hopelessly drowning in vain?
Where would our self pity run?
Suddenly everyone cares.

Blood…Heal me
Fear…Change me
Belief will always save me
Blood…Swearing
Fear…Staring
Conviction made aware

Via Indodreamer – Indonesian Dreamtheater Fan Site

Return the Blade…
Complete the circle….
RELEASE ME FROM THIS F**KING PRISON!

Even though the video doesn’t really cover up what’s really going on, and what exactly the thing I want to share, WTF~ I just like the words : RELEASE ME FROM THIS PRISON. As now I’m being fucked up by akismet and all my comments with pattern which if I fill the URL with my main domain (jpmstyle.com) or any of it’s subdomain, the comment will be recognized as a spam.

I am not a spammer I just wanna make some friends! (if someone thought that my comments are Not suitable with the content, or if someone (blog owners) just don’t like my comments, it’s fine! just delete it and you’re done! You don’t have to report that I’m a spammer right?

My friends told me that I should contact them (akismet), and I’ve done that but until now I haven’t receive any responses, yet still my comments being rejected automatically by all akismet-installed blogs (wp-spamfree also). I hope this problem could be solved asap.

I also posted my couriosity about this on my personal indonesian blog page. Any suggestion? all comments are welcome..

You CAN DO everything, but not all at once.
You CAN DO everything, if it’s important enough for you to do.
You CAN DO everything, but you may not be the best at everything.
You CAN DO everything, but there will be limitations.
You CAN DO everything, but you’ll need help.
A positive thought is the seed of a positive result.
If you don’t like something, change it. If you can’t change it, change your attitude.

Don’t complain. The most significant change in a person’s life is a change of attitude. Right attitudes produce right actions. If you really want to be happy, nobody can stop you. Whether a glass if half-full or half-empty, depends on the attitude of the person looking at it. There is a better way for everything. Find it. A positive attitude is not a destination. It is a way of life. The difference between a successful person and others is not a lack of knowledge, but rather a lack of will.

The positive thinker sees the invisible, feels the intangible, and achieves the impossible. The man with confidence in himself gains the confidence of others. You will only go as far as you think you can go. The biggest mistake of all is to avoid situations in which you might make a mistake.

Thinking about social media in the new era of web they said it’s going to evolve again to the new era of web3.0 ~whatever..

Well if that really happens, this one is to remind for those web.2 services just like social media:

Also this one:

Picture tells thousands words! ~I’m getting addicted to do this.

didn’t catch the point just by reading the title of this presentation, but after I watch it and try to figure out also, ~Still I could’nt get it! lol

Anyway, this one also interesting.

Web 2.0? I think it was just some people says new version of web services, (that was what I’ve thought all about it) but after watch out this on slideshare then I can imagine of what’s the exactly web-2.0 it is, and what’s about the future?

This is really a cool slide, check it out!

Simple word that was the key for successfull in any kind of things in life. Blogging also need focus. I write this to pull myself into more focus on what’s I’m doing. A self-motivation that maybe anyone else don’t need that.

But I need to!
I Have to!
I Will do!

FOCUS.

anyway, what’s the meaning of the simple word : focus?

Some people says she came to you in your dreams or most of them is nightmare, but her demonic beauty suck your soul as they burn with desire.

Why did I mention on the title as ‘it’ not ’she’, it’s because I don’t want to get a misunderstanding perception in any kind. Having a dream is good for people, I don’t dream so much because I awaken at night, most of them. So my night dreams could be counted within fingers in my hand. sometime I wish I could be like any other people who can sleep at night, at 10 pm, and wake up next morning and do the daily life activity.

I think my Insomnia is never gonna be healed. This night I sleep for about only 2 hour from 8 pm to 10 then I go online until now it’s 3.20 am. Oh beauty succubus, come to me and make me sleep….

Blog oh blog, haha..
I have several blogs but the one who always be the place where I post un-happy thing is this one well I don’t care because somewhat that’s why blogs are made to! To tell story, to tell thoughts, and wether it’s readed by other people or not it doesn’t matter! My friend said on his blog about his experience being an ‘Operator warnet‘. Cheer up dude! many people don’t have even a job nowaday.

What can I say? While i’m also feeling stuck these couple weeks. My blog isn’t work so much for me (what??) ~err yet again, all the things I do is just bidding, bid and bid! what a boring thing. What cause? Well I have a thought that it is because google is doing another minor update these couple day. That’s why advertiser won’t take any risk from that.

Just wait, and pray, and be patient ~huff
ups I’ve forgotten! maybe you want to have some free e-books? check it out, it’s my new one

After 2 month that I’ve ‘pushed’ my honey to move her blog into my self-hosted blog, she’s starting to publish whatever she likes into the blog. Yeah it is good for her even that sometimes i felt her writing is a little bit awful compared to me of course. That’s fine we’re still learning and keep doing that would make it better someday – Practice makes perfect – isn’t it right?

One more great thing is that she’s so excited when she tries to search on google with several keywords and she found her own blog is on the top list of google search page. She said so happy with that and makes her want to keep writing and writing with an expectation that more keywords will guide people to her blog.

I said ‘yeah you should do so, because that’s the basic of SEO (search engine optimization) it is all about keywords, and that’s how people find your blog. and don’t forget to do blogwalking to make friends’

Well my girl could do that, how abou me? ~Errr my blog’s SERP doesn’t realy as good as her blog (with different keyword of course) actual comparison is when she just posted a blog, then she query what’s she’s just wrote, it appears on google’s page with a good position! While my blog seem’s doesn’t indexed by google as fast as that! ~sigh… does google loves woman too??